Golden Slumbers

Adam is comming home Thursday for two weeks — I’m positive of that now.  He phoned today to say that he did in fact pass his final test so he will be graduating Thursday as previously planned.  I’m excited yet sad about all this at the same time.  Sure I’m thrilled beyond words to get [...]

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I’m sick — I mean really sick.  For the past week, I’ve been overcome by sense of nausia that simply will not cease.  At first I wasn’t troubled by this sickning pain, until today when I nearly passed out in the foor at starbucks during work.  What the fuck is wrong with me?  I’ve never [...]

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I’ve got cold feet.  I just knew it was going to happen.  For the past few months I pretended as though the entire situation was no big deal, and now as the days draw closer I can’t help but look ahead anxiously.Adam graduates the 3rd of July, he’s then comming home for two weeks — [...]

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I finally did manage to get a day off, even thought if it were up to Dianne, I wouldn’t have. She called at the lovely hour at 8 am and begged me to come in on my day off and work TCBY.  I work at starbucks, not TCBY.  Sure, I’m crossed trained.  Sure, I could use [...]

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I’m screaming at the top of my lungs.  I’m in a croweded room.  No one can hear me over top of the massive confusion.  No one is aware of my presence or seems to care if they are.  I’m lost.  I’m confused.  I’m lonely.What will happen to me?  I told my boss today that I [...]

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Adam called during my family reunion yesterday, and he’s much more anxious about the events to come then I had thought.  Not only does he take the test tomorrow that will decide his military fate for the next few years, tomorrow, but he’s now comming to the realization that are marriage date is nearing.  Something [...]

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I thought I could but I couldn’t. I thought by now I was healing at that all the emotions I was hiding from we’re no longer there to jump out at me. I was wrong.Adam and I posted at RT Forums. It’s the message board for the RT movie discussion site. Up until today, I [...]

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Today was very uneventful in my opinion.  I awoke (late for work as usual) at 5:25 am (exactly 5 minutes from the time I was suppose to leave for work).  When I arrived at http://starbucks.com” target=”new frame”>starbucks, I was quite shocked to see that Donna had the day off and Tommy had opened.  I love [...]

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Well my three day weekend is quickly comming to an end, and I fear that tomorrow I will once again have to return to the hell that I know as HMS host.  I hate my job.  There’s on other way to put it.  However, you see at the moment I can’t quit because I’m caught [...]

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My tea’s gone cold, I’m wondering why I got out of bed at all
the morning rain clouds up my window and I can’t see at all
And even if I could it’d all be grey, but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it’s not so bad
it’s not so bad
I drank too much last night, [...]

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